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so this is my life & i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be.
please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.

Wednesday, February 16

naptime?

student: "its scary in a good way, not clown scary. umm, how i say this.. its like you don't wanna look at it for too long."
teacher: "i see a girl caught in the remains of a holiday gone bad. her flesh picked off day after day. the palm tree might be a broken dream, i don't know. definitely has meaning. a lot of pain.. excellent; this is excellent."




i pray the words i can't say.

Tuesday, February 15

mental floss.



why i loveeeee these :)

pi reminds me of my lovely cousin :)
&of course schoolday classmates.. go mudd!

"a tuck a day can keeps the pounds away..
but its can't keep away a sprained ankle.. fuck"

obviously articles on confed.
reminds me of lakeside.

ever grind to classical?

basicalgebra(:

it was my favorite planet..

<3

deliveryservice&gettinnpaid..
this is whyyy i love the bayyy.

"you live on jamaica street?"
'yea..'
"nice."





Monday, February 14

happy valentine's day.


i see you.

i love the 90s.

im craving VH1's
"I <3 the 90s"

"Sounds like young Arnold's got another one of his 
complex labyrinthine conundrums of a boyhood problem"







Garth: What do you do if every time you see this one incredible woman, you think you're gonna hurl? 
Wayne: I say hurl. If you blow chunks and she comes back, she's yours. 
But if you spew and she bolts, then it was never meant to be. 



"you can't do that"
'says who?'
"says Mr. Chess!"

THE AMANDA SHOW
<3



To protect the world from devastation.
To unite all people within our nation.
To denounce the evils of truth and love.
To extend our reach to the stars above.
Jessie. James. 
Team Rocket blasting off at the speed of light. 
Surrender now or prepare to fight. 
Meowth. That's right!



Remember kid, there's heroes and there's legends. 
Heroes get remembered but legends never die, follow your heart kid, 
and you'll never go wrong. 







 mmmbop - hanson<3




ladies with an attitude.
fellas that are in the mood.
don't just stand there.
let's get to it.
strike a pose,
there's nothing to it.
VOGUE.

im back.

those six days..


i understand what drew is saying though; 
 i could laugh while staring at white walls,
   i could cry when looking at the sun,
    i could get angry at my breakfast,
     i could feel lonely with everyone around me.
      i would skip, run, twirl, scream at random times.
       i didn't have to act "perfect" 
        because only the "imperfect" were sent there..
         but what is really perfect? 
           and what is really normal?



we are all made in God's image,
and i saw this first hand in the ward.
to be honest, the other patients i met in there, 
were some of the most beautiful people i have ever met.


Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart. 


i re-read the stuff i'd already wrote in this blog.
organized chaos, to the max.
exfriends.. really got to me.
i like myself the way i am naturally :)






oh, and before i forget..
happy single awareness day.
i do have a valentine and he makes me smile.
"trust your heart & let fate decide" -Tarzan


Monday, October 4

word up to Francis of Assisi!

"I am astonished at nothing. I am not disturbed at seeing myself weakness itself.
On the contrary, it is in my weakness that I glory,
and I expect each day to discover new imperfections in myself"


"I understood how easy it is to become all wrapped up in self,
forgetting entirely the sublime goal of one's calling.
You alone could satisfy a soul that needed to love even to the infinite"
- St. Therese of Lisieux


Friday, October 1

work in progress to soundtrack of my life.

Free Fallin Friday Song Playlist
"music is the heart's and soul's alter ego"

1. free fallin - john mayer
great beat and melody and a classic cover song. definitely needs to be number one.



2. no woman, no cry remix - the christines
acoustic remix. gets no better than music from your own soul.
i love christine phelps and amanda christine "lets have this bowl for two(:"
don't worry.. ill find my prince charming (:



3. secrets - one republic.
i see you (:




4. sleepyhead neo tokyo remix - passion pit
how i feel when im being wild and free, even when i have to be constrained <3


5. why georgia  - john mayer
"so what, so i got a smile on.. well, its hiding the quiet superstitions in my head" QUOTE OF LIFE.

6. sublime cover - jason mraz
all you need is the basic love tools to succeed <3

7. i'll run - the cab
i run everyday, don't know where im going, but i'll be there someday(:

8. what i got - sublime
we all are rich, in our own life lovin kind of way.


9. all mixed up - sublime

10. aum aum - ov7
11. 1 2 3 4 remix - fiest
12. do it - nelly furtado


13. jumper - third eye blind
and if you do not want to see again.. i will understand.

14. slide - goo goo dolls <3<3<3
if any boy every sang/played on guitar to me.. i'll immediately fall in love.



15. forever remix - drake, kanye, weezybaby, eminem[:
it may not mean NOTHING to y'all.. but understand NOTHING was done for me.. so i don't plan on stopping to y'all.. i want MY shit forever.


16. every new day - five iron frenzy
family forever. songs for passion. dance for life.


17. everything's magic - angels and airways
all you need is trust, with a little bit of pixie dust.. then you'll be infinite.



18. white houses - vanessa carlton
"maybe you'll remember me, what i gave is yours to keep, in white houses" live & learn<3


19. just dance - lady gaga
dance like nobody's watching.. because the ones who loves you, will be dancing right along with you.


20. corona & lime - shwazey?
always want to end your night with your best friend.. the corona to your lime <3